Board writing I free write there are errors yes

I used to think when I would work a regular job. Jail came to mind and I would say“ program time” cause it s like jail the smell of oranges everyday we’d hear “wake up it’s chow time” or wake up it’s time to program it’s about 4:45 am when we wake up but it can be scary once it was fights that broke out 3 fights in one day one in my cell a nice lady got socked by shareen and I was both their friends I felt bad for kaylee and sharene I had met her previously in my past on the outs she was cool never disrespected me girls are crazy tho and by the time the cops come down to break up another fight that shit is about 5 mins and they ran in take them down like body slammed a girl and it’s just crazy and I Seen many things I remember my nick names were gurber baby and Facebook oh because I was making friends and I wanted to add them on my Facebook after so I had a list of names but I only have like 3 here anyway I was ready for change at this point at any time I could have turned back just know that I never did anything for praise it was something between me and Jesus he knew I would try that was it, it could have been a minute but I was trying this was like my 5th time in there the slammer and I get out released my kids were so happy they ran to me gave me the most loving hugs and when they came from school one day I heard them say is my mom still here? My mom said yes she’s in the room they were excited like yay mommy’s still here and they came and gave me a hug I never really left them I was only rolling with my life kicking my feet up. I say this cause I had it made my welfare, my food stamps low rent I took care of my kids bed time was 9-6 eventually they started waking their selves up and just go to school I remember thw day I woke up and I was scared too because they were gone I thought someone stole them and I didn’t know what to do but no they went to school on their own thank god I said thank you to him so much because I called the school I was like hi Irma im wondering if they got there my kids on time she said yeah they’re here I said ok cause I wasn’t sure if they got there on time when they got home I hugged them so tight the times I was in jail I was away so that was different times once it was 53 days another time 2 weeks another 3 days another 8 hours another like 2 days the 53 days covered timed up and no programs I was learning to ground myself and I’d tell my people you better write write me and after this we can’t be friends I’m going to show you what we’re capable of and it’s time I had many talks with my people on the outs they know where I stand they never wrote haha but only my sister wrote but I tossed her letter I didn’t care to read it sorry Sam I was mad at you anyway I was counting down my days like I’d send a letter to my mom I’d write mom I’ll be out in 10 days and them days took so long you can’t smoke you can’t do much but you learn to make the best of it and you see people kick too I remember a girl she shitted on herself she was young and a heroine addict and they threw her in the shower and told meto clean her help them out I was like eww no like no I’m not give her my towel I don’t need it anyway clean her with the towel and then the girl needed methadone because she was kicking she got better after days then she got released it’s very sad jail so you know you mean people can really drive someone to feel so small I just want you to know that and you mean people can make someone turn to things that love them and don’t judge them like form a circle and then they surround us, ourselves with love and find that thing that comforts us like addiction because it’s not mean to us and that can reallly screw up a head if the abuse it because even I will never judge an addict I know it’s possible to heal yes it’s like love but that one person that gets mad because they don’t let them rest and then that man that can’t stop and you love him he’s mad because you can’t do the house work and you are like why am I here am I supposed to be his slave and is this really what I want and that mean person has done hit a nerve I really wish you guys knew why I was so nice it’s because I hate mean and I’m a mean person you know I realized long ago that I can’t beat the sence in you or if your a hoe I can’t un do that but I can defiantly talk and speak and tell you things I don’t like because I have a voice. And so I’m also pretty smart too I don’t think I’m stupid if it’s someone’s opinion to call me crazy I’ll laugh because not even the mental home gave me a certificate on that note so say what you want think what you want don’t be a judge if you don’t get paid for it and don’t judge not even an addict course they can be cured just love it cures that it conquers trust me when insay it but a rude one can really hit a trigger

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